Tuesday, August 9, 2011
All the little happenings. . .
So at what point does everything change? I mean I know 'they' say it is a gradual thing, that change takes place over a series of minutes, hours, days, months, and even years, but I still can't understand. I was driving the other day, being very thoughtful in my car on the short drive to work at mellow mushroom , and it hit me that everything is so different.
The things I once found comfort and support in are no longer there or at least not the same and all the hope I stored in the spaces between them seems to have relocated. I will say that the day I found myself thinking these thoughts was the very day that the PC volleyball team was reporting back for there first day of pre-season, and if I had stayed this would have been my last one. I put a lot into that place, those people, and those memories, and never did I think that a year from now it would lead me here.
So my questions, At what point do you find yourself in a new place? At what point did the year change? At what point did new friends become old ones? At what point did I decide to move forward? All at once it seems like these little decisions and happenings all came together and took me here.
Well those are my thoughts.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
ohhhh High School
My friend, MaryFrances, turned 21 today, and It has made me really miss High school. I started to look through old pictures from high school, and just realize how much fun it really was.
Also, I have read my sister's blog, and she is now the new Eastside Eagles Varsity Cheerleading Coach! She is going to make such an amazing coach. I am not sure if she knows this, but I have always looked up to her, ever since I was in the 8th grade, and she was going on a beach trip with her friends, I can remember running in to her room, and offering one of my turquoise tank tops, in hopes that my cool stepsister would want to take it to the beach and wear my clothes! Ha, It is so neat to look back on those times, and see how our relationship has changed. She has become one of my close friends, and I think that is something that is just going to keep growing. I love getting on FB and just debriefing with her, and talking about our week, guys, life, work, Matt, Parent's, Ambien moments, and really just anything. I have so much respect for her. I think she has really become someone that I would love to model myself after. :) She has really been there for me in some KEY times when I needed just the right amount of "protection", or just the right amount of "encouragement." She is really good at that.
So yeh, all this leads me to realize I am almost 4 years out of high school, and I can't even begin to tell you where the time went. So I have decided to go down memory lane, and take you with me.
EHS blackout at RHS :) nothing can beat some High School spirit.
Senior DC Government trip! oh yeh baby.
:)
me and My brother :)
football!
I used to LOOVE this hat.
Before Ash left for YWAM
SO there are a few little pics for ya, thanks for joining me on my road through Highschool.
Also, I have read my sister's blog, and she is now the new Eastside Eagles Varsity Cheerleading Coach! She is going to make such an amazing coach. I am not sure if she knows this, but I have always looked up to her, ever since I was in the 8th grade, and she was going on a beach trip with her friends, I can remember running in to her room, and offering one of my turquoise tank tops, in hopes that my cool stepsister would want to take it to the beach and wear my clothes! Ha, It is so neat to look back on those times, and see how our relationship has changed. She has become one of my close friends, and I think that is something that is just going to keep growing. I love getting on FB and just debriefing with her, and talking about our week, guys, life, work, Matt, Parent's, Ambien moments, and really just anything. I have so much respect for her. I think she has really become someone that I would love to model myself after. :) She has really been there for me in some KEY times when I needed just the right amount of "protection", or just the right amount of "encouragement." She is really good at that.
So yeh, all this leads me to realize I am almost 4 years out of high school, and I can't even begin to tell you where the time went. So I have decided to go down memory lane, and take you with me.
EHS blackout at RHS :) nothing can beat some High School spirit.
Senior DC Government trip! oh yeh baby.
:)
me and My brother :)
football!
I used to LOOVE this hat.
Before Ash left for YWAM
SO there are a few little pics for ya, thanks for joining me on my road through Highschool.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Lauren!
http://lolofree2be.blogspot.com/
Please check out Lauren's Blog, go here and learn about Hope for Haiti. Lauren is doing an internship all summer with this program, and it is going to be insane. I know the people who read this blog, may not know her, but your prayer will not go unnoticed. :) She also needs to raise a good bit of money, so if you feel led to give to hope for haiti under Lauren, it would really help! Any amount will be a huge blessing!
Please check out Lauren's Blog, go here and learn about Hope for Haiti. Lauren is doing an internship all summer with this program, and it is going to be insane. I know the people who read this blog, may not know her, but your prayer will not go unnoticed. :) She also needs to raise a good bit of money, so if you feel led to give to hope for haiti under Lauren, it would really help! Any amount will be a huge blessing!
way to long.
Can't sleep. Need to update this blog. WAY TO LONG.
Recently I got back from the DC Mission trip through FCA. It was wonderful. I walked away with an entire van full of new friends, a refreshment from the Lord beyond words, and an idea of what community is going to look like for me starting in May. Before leaving for DC things were a little dry. I needed this trip. I am very sure that the Lord placed me there very specifically. I think this Blog entry is going to be stream of consciousness. . So hopefully you can follow along.
So there are a group of guys I know that live life together in the closest way possible( that i know of) to what the Bible says Community is supposed to be, and that blows my mind. I love it. I am pumped to do life with Ash, Meghan, Katie, Liz, and Lolly. I told Lauren a few weeks ago on our jog, that I knew the one thing I would never really have here at Clemson was a close group of girls like i did at Pc that would be holding me accountable, and Yeh God blew that out of the water. I can't even begin to imagine what the next year of my life will look like.
That leads me to think about what I was doing this time last year. My roommate often refers to " This time last year". . . and will speak about how differently life is.. Well I was thinking about that yesterday.. this time last year, I was at PC, and to be honest really liked a guy, you could say he was a best friend at the time, and that person, does not play the same role in my life as he did then, which is hard to think about.
I am being way honest with you blogger world. So feel privileged. It pretty much, for sure, scares the crap out of me. I HATE losing people, I hate losing people who are close to me, and maybe I am not really losing anyone, maybe I have just convinced myself that I am losing them.. who knows.. who really knows what all that means.
All I know is, I am not where I used to be, spiritually, mentally, physically, or emotionally. Isn't that insane.. that in just a few months, the Lord can completely take you from point A to Point Z. I am being a little bit dramatic, but hey.. that is how I feel.
I have been super reflective lately. I miss my friends at Pc, but I love my new ones.
I wonder where I will be on March 27th a Year from now. I like to think, studying abroad.. or leading other believers in some way.. not just following. Maybe I will be applying for an internship somewhere with YL or just an Art place. Maybe I will be dating, maybe not. Maybe I will be in a completely different season of life .. AHHH who knows.
I never thought I was one who was scared of change. And I still don't think I am, but I know that lately the Lord has had to remind me that his will is good, and pleasing. He places people in and out of my life at the exact right moments for the exact right amount of time, and I HAVE got to believe that, or else... I get sick with worry that I am losing someone.. So that is my struggle lately, it is being journaled and prayed through don't you worry, but if there is one thing that Keeps showing up year after year.. it is that.. my worry of losing people.
bleh.
That is way to much for tonight.
Goodnite
Recently I got back from the DC Mission trip through FCA. It was wonderful. I walked away with an entire van full of new friends, a refreshment from the Lord beyond words, and an idea of what community is going to look like for me starting in May. Before leaving for DC things were a little dry. I needed this trip. I am very sure that the Lord placed me there very specifically. I think this Blog entry is going to be stream of consciousness. . So hopefully you can follow along.
So there are a group of guys I know that live life together in the closest way possible( that i know of) to what the Bible says Community is supposed to be, and that blows my mind. I love it. I am pumped to do life with Ash, Meghan, Katie, Liz, and Lolly. I told Lauren a few weeks ago on our jog, that I knew the one thing I would never really have here at Clemson was a close group of girls like i did at Pc that would be holding me accountable, and Yeh God blew that out of the water. I can't even begin to imagine what the next year of my life will look like.
That leads me to think about what I was doing this time last year. My roommate often refers to " This time last year". . . and will speak about how differently life is.. Well I was thinking about that yesterday.. this time last year, I was at PC, and to be honest really liked a guy, you could say he was a best friend at the time, and that person, does not play the same role in my life as he did then, which is hard to think about.
I am being way honest with you blogger world. So feel privileged. It pretty much, for sure, scares the crap out of me. I HATE losing people, I hate losing people who are close to me, and maybe I am not really losing anyone, maybe I have just convinced myself that I am losing them.. who knows.. who really knows what all that means.
All I know is, I am not where I used to be, spiritually, mentally, physically, or emotionally. Isn't that insane.. that in just a few months, the Lord can completely take you from point A to Point Z. I am being a little bit dramatic, but hey.. that is how I feel.
I have been super reflective lately. I miss my friends at Pc, but I love my new ones.
I wonder where I will be on March 27th a Year from now. I like to think, studying abroad.. or leading other believers in some way.. not just following. Maybe I will be applying for an internship somewhere with YL or just an Art place. Maybe I will be dating, maybe not. Maybe I will be in a completely different season of life .. AHHH who knows.
I never thought I was one who was scared of change. And I still don't think I am, but I know that lately the Lord has had to remind me that his will is good, and pleasing. He places people in and out of my life at the exact right moments for the exact right amount of time, and I HAVE got to believe that, or else... I get sick with worry that I am losing someone.. So that is my struggle lately, it is being journaled and prayed through don't you worry, but if there is one thing that Keeps showing up year after year.. it is that.. my worry of losing people.
bleh.
That is way to much for tonight.
Goodnite
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Game Night
A few nights ago, The roommates decided to have a little game night.
I would upload more pictures, but it is taking about 120982349-239402374981233,00000,000 minutes to do it.
I would upload more pictures, but it is taking about 120982349-239402374981233,00000,000 minutes to do it.
Prodigal Girl: Here we go!
Prodigal Girl: Here we go!: "So I am not a writer by any means, although I have kept journals since I was 10. For some reason I can process through things better when I ..."
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Home is wherever I'm with you
I have NO idea how to start this blog. I am currently in Clemson, South Carolina, sitting on a couch in the Ridge, APT 107 to be exact. Looking at Betsy, and Susannah watching some show on television, while I have my headphones in listening to "Home" by Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros. This song brings a lot of sweet little memories to my thoughts. Specifically being in the Ceramics Studio at PC. Duncan Cecil introduced me to this one, and I absolutely adore the lyrics, and playfulness of the song. I just picture myself dancing around, rinsing the slip out of my brushes, singing, and laughing while enjoying the company of other art majors.
So this first made me a little sad, right? I mean, I am no longer a Blue hose. Here I am, a "Tiger," and currently that doesn't carry as much weight to me as it probably does to most of the students here. Please do not take this the wrong way, and assume that I am unhappy here. Because I am VERY happy. It did, although, make me think, and wonder why else I like the song. I love the phrase, " Home is wherever I'm with you." I have just realized that, wherever I am in life, I will always, in some way be, "Home." As long as I am pursuing Jesus, and TRUSTING where he is taking me, I feel that I can't get to far from Home.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rjFaenf1T-Y
So this first made me a little sad, right? I mean, I am no longer a Blue hose. Here I am, a "Tiger," and currently that doesn't carry as much weight to me as it probably does to most of the students here. Please do not take this the wrong way, and assume that I am unhappy here. Because I am VERY happy. It did, although, make me think, and wonder why else I like the song. I love the phrase, " Home is wherever I'm with you." I have just realized that, wherever I am in life, I will always, in some way be, "Home." As long as I am pursuing Jesus, and TRUSTING where he is taking me, I feel that I can't get to far from Home.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rjFaenf1T-Y
Monday, January 10, 2011
The Beginning of something great.
Hi, blogging world,
I have missed you. I am thinking about going behind your back, and making another Blog, but this one will only be a Photography blog. No need to be worried.
So last night was my first night in Clemson, ended it by watching Love and Basketball with the wonderful Ashley Marshall, and woke up this morning to a winter wonderland. GEEZ. This place is beautiful. I have been wondering when it will hit me that I am in a new place. I mean, I get it, but I just feel like I am here to hang out for a while, and play with new friends. I have been to excited to sleep, so I have spent a lot of time in my bed, just thinking. I can't even begin to imagine what this year will look like. I know I have so many wonderful relationships to come, and THAT is a precious thing.
So I was trying to explain this "move" to someone the other night, and all that kept coming to my mind was a fresh start. I know that God CLEARLY pointed me here, and took me where I needed to be. He truly does know the desires of my heart. :) I needed this, the FRESH start.
I am at a place where I could soak up so many different things, and THAT is a wonderful place... I want to be committed to updating this thing. So stay tuned people.
I have missed you. I am thinking about going behind your back, and making another Blog, but this one will only be a Photography blog. No need to be worried.
So last night was my first night in Clemson, ended it by watching Love and Basketball with the wonderful Ashley Marshall, and woke up this morning to a winter wonderland. GEEZ. This place is beautiful. I have been wondering when it will hit me that I am in a new place. I mean, I get it, but I just feel like I am here to hang out for a while, and play with new friends. I have been to excited to sleep, so I have spent a lot of time in my bed, just thinking. I can't even begin to imagine what this year will look like. I know I have so many wonderful relationships to come, and THAT is a precious thing.
So I was trying to explain this "move" to someone the other night, and all that kept coming to my mind was a fresh start. I know that God CLEARLY pointed me here, and took me where I needed to be. He truly does know the desires of my heart. :) I needed this, the FRESH start.
I am at a place where I could soak up so many different things, and THAT is a wonderful place... I want to be committed to updating this thing. So stay tuned people.
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